Automatic writing - 2nd attempt

60 day challenge

I read a book at the end of 2023 about automatic writing when I was doing my No Sound Challenge, How to Do Automatic Writing by Edain McCoy. I had limited prior knowledge about the subject and it was my first time attempting to do it.

I had decided that I would capture the day, time, weather and moon information along with the automatic writing. I was curious to see what, if anything, could make a difference. I think I love collecting data, but sometimes I don’t know what to do with it all at the moment. Admittedly, when I took the challenge, I found that it was one of my worst participations…if I was looking for an excuse, I could say it was going on simultaneously with my No Sound Challenge and I was just busy in life in general during that time. My Grandma had just passed. I was working and burning the candle at both ends, working at the law office and our shop. But the reality of it is, is that I just didn’t put the right amount of stock and investment into it. I think it is the only challenge I have ever done for myself where I actually felt disappointed about my lack of interest in keeping up with it. That challenge was supposed to be 60 days. I only made it 33 days, and only capturing 21 of those days doing the actual challenge! Terrible!

Even with that being the case, I did learn some valuable information. The most valuable being that the energy realms are louder at different times of the day. Most of my notes were mainly scribbles and drawings of what I was seeing, and on the back of the page, I wrote down in better detail what my visions were when I was able to open my eyes. I found it interesting that I was getting more images instead of words. Even trying to put together the information is just a muddle of information. I did not see a consistent theme from one night to the next. Then it dawned on me. I was only getting into my meditative state and then asking to be shown and told the information that wanted to come through. I did not have a real clear-cut direction of what I was trying to accomplish. I just wanted to connect and see what happened.

When my friend did my palm reading after my birthday last year, she mentioned that I should get into the practice of automatic writing. I think it is beautiful how things come back around to remind us of where we need to be placing some of our energy. Well, it took me months before I guess I was ripe for the idea. And while I was cleaning and organizing, I found the journal that I had used for the last challenge. I wanted to continue the practice there. I realized that the way I needed to handle this second go round with automatic writing was to be more specific with my intentions. I talk to Zane’s spirit every day. While I don’t get the same responses as before, he constantly shows me signs that he is here with me. We were so close so it makes sense why his spirit would hang out around me so much. I am grateful. I decided that I would use this opportunity to connect further with Zane’s spirit.

I had the idea rolling around in my brain. Since my No Social Media Challenge just ended (I still have yet to get online although I have thought about it hah), it seemed like a good time to begin a new challenge. I debated back and forth whether or not it was going to be 30 day or 60 day. During my debate, I had an immense realization. 60 days from today falls into the one year anniversary of Zane’s death….I decided that if there was ever a time that I needed a message, it would be now and that the timing was divine. Thank you Spirit.

Last night, Cyrus, Casey and Alaska came over to hang out. We all talked about it and they encouraged me on my challenge and said they looked forward to hearing what I was able to learn. After the kids went home last night, I was still feeling Zane’s energy really strong. I looked at the clock and it was already February 2 so I got out my trusty notebook, got in my meditation chair and began focusing on my breath so as to come into a mediative state. As my mind calmed down, the first thing I heard was Zane say “Howdy”. It lit my heart energy up. I found myself talking out loud to him and I could hear a few brief words of his response. The energy fields were loud and I assured him that I would help him in any way I could so that we could communicate better. He told me he was going to Cyrus’s for the night and that he would be back for pancakes when he woke up haha (hello 12:24 right now - hi babydoll). I heard him say “I love you Momma” and then he was gone! I felt his energy gone too. I text Cy and let him know and he was immediately geeked and said he was looking forward to Zane being there with him.

I am looking forward to this next challenge and seeing what comes out of it and what Zane will be able to tell me. Taking it all in.